Love will lead the way home
My Spiritual Journey
I came to understand myself, and the things that made me ME.
From a young age..
I knew I was not exactly like other kids. I remember telling my parents about things I heard and saw, to which their reply was “It’s only your imagination.” My parents didn’t believe in “ghosts” or “psychic abilities.” The things I spoke about were silly, make believe, evil spirits or possibly even the Devil. I was encouraged to stop paying attention to it and to quit talking about it. So, that’s what I tried to do.
But what did it want with me?
Every night I would pray and ask God protect me and keep me safe. Just please let me sleep all night without hearing, seeing or feeling anything! I started sleeping with my CD player, Mariah Carey or Sarah Mclachlan sang on repeat until I fell asleep. It helped drown out any noises I heard.
I remember feeling intense emotions even if it did not make sense at the moment. I was constantly checking in with those around me, asking people “are you ok?” I could pick up that something felt different, but did not understand. I was able to feel when someone was sad, angry or in physical pain. It left me exhausted emotionally and physically at the end of the day. I also seemed to “attract” spirits no matter where I went. I could feel their energy present. I didn’t know or understand what was happening at the time, but I knew it was something supernatural. These types of experiences happened at a new house my parents built my senior year, when I went off to college, my first apartment with my best friend, and to my first home with my husband. I never could explain why, I just knew there was some reason.. or something. I just couldn’t pinpoint it. But I was different. I continued to downplay the things that I experienced, I wanted so badly to just be “normal.”
Breaking Down the Walls
Still living with fear, I tried to hide from it, to pray it away, ignore it..
Nothing worked. It actually got louder. I would beg with God in my prayer time to please take it from me if it was anything evil at all. I was experiencing premonition dreams, synchronicities, visions about things that would later prove to have some significance, and the craziest one of all.. while at the salon, I would sense a clients passed loved one trying to relay messages as I was doing their hair! (Um.. hello?!? I’m sorry, but I don’t know how to talk to you and I can NOT mess up their hair!)
Time to face the unknown
Fast forward to when I became a mom.
Becoming a mom was one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I have two boys, and they are two years apart. I love those big hearted, wild and sometimes crazy boys, and it wasn’t very long until it became apparent that they both had some amazing gifts of their own. They were “different” just like me.
I knew someday they would have the same questions I did. I knew it was up to me to find the answers.
I wanted to be able to have answers when they came to me with questions. I wanted to be able to give them the support that was needed for this. I wanted to protect them from the fears that came with this sort of thing -with these experiences. I began researching everything I could.
And I mean..
EVERYTHING. I. COULD.
More research led me to try meditation. This had a profound impact on numerous areas of my life. It was the one thing that finally helped me quiet my mind so that I was able to connect with God, and Spirit to actually hear what they have been trying to tell me my whole life.
As I spent time with my inner child, I realized I had nothing to fear. I experienced forgiveness and grief, and it shifted my intention. This is when I really started working with God, working with Spirit, the Divine, the Creator, the Universe, you name it, it is all one. I personally use God and Spirit or the Divine, because that is what resonates with me.
Little did I know, it was actually the start of an amazing spiritual and healing journey for me. The beginning of the path that changed my life, forever.💛
Surrendering to the Flow
I like to think of surrendering as going with the flow. For example water, it literally goes effortlessly in one direction, all together. Believe me, it’s way easier to go with the flow then it is to swim up the stream. Especially when it comes to working with the Divine. God is wanting to work with us. God is within us, walking with us, and leading us. God speaks to us, and sometimes it’s in different ways. We just have to quiet our hearts and minds, boldly trust and know that we are loved and protected!
It’s so easy to hear from the Divine if you just listen quietly and go with the flow!
There are no words that describe how good it feels to be in true alignment, to be in the flow with your souls purpose!
When I began to listen and truly be open to the possibilities, Spirit began giving me opportunities and new experiences that helped me open up further. This happened over the course of a year. I called them “training exercises.” I began working with Spirit and let my guard down, and started to share some of the messages I had received to others.
The validation I received in return was beautiful reassurance that this is what I am here to do. I was starting to step into alignment with my soul’s purpose. And I can’t even tell you how wonderfully beautiful and amazing it felt.
IS THE DIVINE SPEAKING TO YOU??